cheese

i need to stop eating so many foods with cheese as the main ingredient. for dinner last night, Sarah and i went to Uncle Julio's, i had cheese and onion enchiladas. i ate my left overs for lunch today. yesterday's lunch consisted of mac & cheese. sunday night Will and i went to El Pacifico and i had enchiladas there too. don't get me wrong, i do love cheese. but its doing a number on my stomach lately. plus i'm sure its not healthy to eat this way. i need to buy more vegetables and fruits. its just hard to have time to go out and buy those things every couple of days when i have the dog here with me cause i can't take him with on the walk since i'm afraid to tie him up outside and leave him. he is too friendly if people come up to him they will probably mess with him. if he were a big scary pit bull or at least growl at people instead of wag his tail and jump at them willingly, i wouldn't be so cautious about tying him up for a few minutes while i run in somewhere. but i wouldn't want anyone taking him, or in the very least, unhooking his leash to let him roam around. he's not smart enough yet to stay away from cars. i really hate it that dogs aren't allowed everywhere. correction, dogs that you cannot carry aren't allowed everywhere. i understand restaurant policies, i wouldn't ask for that. and ok, yeah, a supermarket probably wouldn't be good either. anything with worry about food contamination. But there was some woman on the bus last night with a chihuahua in her purse and no one gave her a hard time. i'm sure the bus driver didn't really notice, but everyone on the bus sure did. although the dog wasn't noisy. but still. what if i needed to go somewhere that wasn't walking distance with Rudy. its not fair that my well behaved dog is not allowed to ride on a bus or on the el, but a stupid little accessory type of dog is. people who are allergic to dogs are just as allergic to those little dogs carried around in public places, so why are they still allowed or at least ignored? NOT FUCKING FAIR if you ask me. i guess my real problem here is trust. i cannot trust people. i think the worst of people. that they will do harm to my dog if i leave him tied up or in the yard without supervision.

something cute that happened yesterday that i want to write down so i do not forget it.
i was walking alone (without Rudy cause i'm afraid to tie him up of course) to the foodsmart around 3pm. i had on a different coat than usual and had just gotten out of the shower and straightened my hair, left it down. i was approaching the other side of Humboldt and i see Will coming perpendicular to me. he is looking down at his feet, didn't seem to see me. i shout "HEY!" and he looks up, seems to take a minute to realize its me. we embrace and continue walking together. he's walking to the el to go to school, and the foodsmart is on the way. so he goes, "i saw you coming but i didn't realize it was you. i thought to myself, 'theres a cute girl coming this way, i better not make eye contact.'" i dont know why but i just couldn't stop smiling after he said that for about an hour.