still no job. hire me please?

got a call from WBBM-AM about a possible job. weird call though because the guy, his name being Jim, production manager, was just calling to go thru resumes with people. he didn't ask me if i could come in for an interview after asking me a couple basic questions. that makes me think my answers to said basic questions were sub-par. so much for excitement.
i wrote to some dog daycare places. i really want to work at one if i cant find something in radio right now. hopefully one within walking distance so that Rudy can come to work with me! that would be ideal. i just think it would be more rewarding than working some weird retail job.

Mine and Will's 2 year anniversary is coming up. Feb 11th. Hopefully he won his hockey skates offa ebay so that our date can consist of ice skating at Millennium Park. he has never been ice skating so it should be hilarious. i haven't skated in years either, so its not like i'll be any better at it. i just really hope its not freeze-your-gonads cold that night. we also plan to get Thai food. plenty of hand holding and making out shall ensue. i don't care that i act like a stupid romantic comedy in real life. love does that to a person. we're not disgustingly mushy all the time, i promise. then for Valentines day we're probably just going to go see Casablanca at the Music Box. i don't care to make a big deal out of that holiday. it's just nice to share it with someone.

also coming up in exactly 34 days is our trip to Maui. my third time, Will's second. i was so happy when he asked if he could come with again. not that i was complaining about going again but it is fairly upsetting to just be with my parents for a whole week. so hopefully we'll have acceptable alone time.

recap of other stuff that's been going on...
i went home for a week. saw the doctor, got some free birth control (score! i can successfully put off getting impregnated for at least 5 months, ha), hung out with john and went to the new Sonic in Lockport (greatest munchie food ever btw), got a haircut that wasn't at all necessary, had indian food, and went to Rudy's obedience class where he is the best behaved dog in the class!

had to stay out behind the glass because we brought Major along and he freaked out with all those dogs in the room. so i spent the hour watching from afar and calming down Major Scaredy-dog. so we walked around and he was fascinated with the toy isle.


also, last Friday, went to see FCAB play at the Soundlab in Mokena and then went back to Stefan/Mark's house for the first time since they moved there. so close to my parent's, i should hang there more often. JoePat kissed me on the forehead AND pinched my cheek and gave me shit all night for not drinking nor taking my coat off the entire time. i left early and i felt lame but oh well. Kyle ripped open a finger from rocking so hard:

purpose, not porpoise

purpose (n): something set up as an object or end to be attained, intention; resolution; determination.

i feel like i am searching for my purpose.
what am i supposed to be doing with my time while i am jobless?
i feel useless a lot of the time.
i know that i'm not, but the feeling sticks around anyway.
i know just obtaining a job might not change that, but it would be a nice distraction that would at least allow me to pay my own way.

in the meantime, i been taking pictures for GSMD like its my j-o-b.



hanging out with Danny Milk tomorrow if it decides to stop snowing. bowling, movie, and food at Earwax. thursday is the CHIRP meeting, and its supposed to only be about 5 degrees out, oh joy! and i have to wait for TWO buses to get to this new cafe they're holding the meeting at since the dankhaus is no longer our HQ. but the cool thing is Nick Krkles is joining up so that'll be good to see him and have someone i know involved. friday might be lunch with Dane Deasy, and then i dont know what the weekend holds.

both sarah and kristen seem to be getting sick. i really don't want to get sick again. so i'm barracading myself in my room.

ultrasound, safe and sound..for now

had an ultrasound last monday for my every-six-month check up to make sure more cysts aren't growing. all clear for now. sadly, though, i've been having the WORST period cramps i can remember in recent times. yesterday was a nightmare. i felt awful.
sarah and i made dinner, and her new girl that she's dating Kat came over.
i've gotten started on One Tree Hill series. currently on season two. i'm not sure how i like it. haven't watched enough to make an assessment, but i'm keeping up with it so i guess that means i don't hate it. i just never really like WB shows because they're too preachy, so far this one's been ok with that. 90210 started back up again, so has Nip/Tuck but i still haven't watched the season premiere yet. saw the first five minutes and i can't wait to watch, its just that i've been sucked into One tree hill.

Will's band is having a show tonight and the weather is super shitty once again. Shannon and Alicia were planning on coming out. i made them promise that if the weather continues this way they shouldn't come. i don't want them having a problem or getting their car stuck here once they're here. plus if they come then they're staying overnight, which normally would be ok, its just that then i won't get to go to the afterparty probably cause they won't really enjoy it and then i won't be able to sleep over at Will's and sleep in with him in the morning- one of my favorite things to do.

I'm cold but our gas bill was really high this past time so i've made the thermostat stay at 67. before it would set itself at 70, which is way too high. my room gets boiling when its at that temperature. and i really like having all 5 of my blankets on my bed to make myself a little cocoon at night so i don't mind being cold when i go to bed... but just sitting around in the living room sucks. especially cause our window is still stuck. even with the towels i stuffed in the crack, the heat goes out and cold air comes in i'm sure. so i can never sit on the couch comfortably when it's blow freezing outside. i just can't wait for winter to be over already....
why isn't it closer to march yet? i really need those vacations.

2009....aaand go.

i've been slacking a lot with this blog. i meant to write at least once a week....
i'll just make up for it with a long post!

last night was new year's eve. we were supposed to be getting these special chocolates from one of the members of Rabble Rabble, but he never really got back to Will about it, so we just drank instead. i really dont like drinking and yet lately i've drank more than i have in months. i only had a bottle of white zinfandel, he had a six pack of red stripe. we got take out from El Pacifico, so that was awesome. yummy enchiladas. we also fired up the vaporizer. i was way tired even before midnight. i almost fell asleep on Will's lap, heard his watch beep at midnight (it always does as a reminder for his nighttime shot, not just because it was new year's), he leaned down to kiss me. we didn't really make a big deal out of it. last year it was just him and me watching Its Always Sunny In Philadelphia for hours and had dinner at Streetside. this time we hung out with Drew and Brett listening to records, though Brett left for a party after a few hours. at any rate, an uneventful night, but that's how i like them. i dont feel the need to go out and party just because you're "supposed to" for new year's.

i've been seeing a lot of Will this past week. its been good.
Saturday night I volunteered for CHIRP to sit at a table in the merch area of the Metro and collect donations for charity and try to promote the organization. i sat with this guy Austin, who sounded like Crispin Glover when he spoke. he was cool. i would like to befriend him, not solely because he sounds like Crispin, but that doesnt hurt. hah afterward, i ran into Aaron on the Fullerton bus, and we got a few beers at Quencher's. the boy still wants me. its tough to ignore his flirting, but i have the best thing going with Will and i'm not screwing it up. it is nice to feel desired by other guys though. after that, I stayed over at Wills. Sunday I got to sit in on their band practice. my first time going to the practice space. it was nicer than i expected. stayed over there again that night and hung out with the guys. monday night was their show at Reggie's. i had a good time and took some great pictures this time around. the videos didnt come out as well as i'd hoped. i wish i knew how to lighten up video somehow. it always gets a lot darker once uploaded to youtube. anyway, this is my new favorite picture of Will:


to see the videos, just go to youtube.com/arachnophilia

tuesday night, we met up downtown to see a documentary about a band called The Monks at the Gene Siskel Theatre. that was our first time seeing a film there. it was super nice, and yet not that expensive. we both said we were students. i'm going to use that as long as i can. sometimes its a good thing to look so young :) the movie was great. i learned a lot and found greater respect for a band i knew very little about, besides how incredible most of their songs are. "Complication" is one of my new favorites. i am on a mission to find out what brand of organ Larry Clark played when they were in their heyday. probably something German since they toured Germany mostly. if i could get my hands on that kind of organ i would play all the time. i really want to add organ to the Great Society Mind Destroyers. i want so much to be in a band. i'm not trying to step on them and be "that girl" who is dating a band member so she wants to play in the band too. but seriously, if they ever do a small tour, i'm going. its always been a dream of mine to tour with A band. it's gonna happen.